Are we ready to see the change in ourselves?
After God knows how many days of not blogging, I decided to blog today. That was so random of me. Well blogging is still in my blood. I'm still that same old miserable and grumpy zaidi who hates his life, job and people, puberty is on rehab and my life is still a mess. Many things happened when I was m.i.a. I can't blog it all out, there's no point of that anyway and let's not talk about the past anymore. Let's move forward, it's a new year after all. My 2015 have been quite a roller coaster, I have lived long enough to understand that this is normal for everyone. So don't take it too hard on yourself. The only story about my past that I'm gonna share a little is about my time in NS. First thing that popped into my head when I see the word "NS" is "HELL". Boy was I wrong. It's nothing like hell, it's more like..uh..in between hell and heaven. It was good and bad just like life itself. I never regret everything I've learned and been through during that 2 years and the people who I've met especially my unusual squad mates back then in Home Team Academy. Those 6 months with them are just unforgettable. They were like my temporary family. I remember I was the only one who was feeling sad when it was time to book out but happy when it was time book in, they called me crazy for that. There was pain, endurance, laughter, bond and home. Overall I'm thankful for NS because without it, I wouldn't met new friends who are still here with me till this day. Out of 30 plus, I made 2. It wasn't much but they're the realest. If I could throwback any moment, it would be during that POP march out where we threw our peak caps up in the air and just screamed "POPOH"! I'm still getting the goosebumps. Truth, I miss everything and I'm really glad NS changed me especially that thick mushroom hair I used to love so much, yeah it's so gone for good. What was I thinking?! Ha oh well, we all have our moments. So thank you, NS for the wonderful experience and memories. After I have served my full time National Service, the road to live success is a little bumpy and I lost my seat belt. Everyone have went their separate ways. It's sad but that's just how life is, again I've lived long enough to know that. It's just me against the world again. I knew this day would come but I just didn't realized that it came so fast. I'm turning 21 and already accomplished NS. That's fast huh. Majority of my NS mates are planning to pursue their studies, some are slacking yet some are job hunting and some already have a job like me. I'm still at my old workplace with the same pay. I guess we have something in common, we both have never really change. No matter how much I complain, I still love this job so much. Don't know why, just love it but not the environment but we can't get the best of both worlds in life. In the meantime I'm gonna stay here until the right time comes and my savings are on point, I'll give myself a green light to start my career hunting.
Signing out,
zaidi.
